Arrrg!

So it has started, the newest chapter of my life. Three days ago, my husbands daughter whom I shall call "A", is now residing with us in my humble house. This is of course on top of being pregnant as well. I can honestly say I thought I was going to get a clear nine month stretch before I was going to have kids lol! So now I have two kids (the hubby totally counts) and one on the way! I am still very much uneasy about this and still don't know how to react based on my situation. With pregnancy hormones raging, I feel very much like an alien in my own skin. "A" acts her age, that's for sure. She's a very bright child, loaded with a mouth and manners that I'm sure would make my mother roll over in her urn. It is extremely hard not to say something in my own house when I feel so awkward seeing as though this is not my child. Whats even worse is having a husband who is an enabler and does not listen to anything I say till its too late and nothing else can be done.

I'm so sick of coming home from work and finding my food eaten! Every day that I buy something for myself, I find that when I get off of a looong day at work and it is gone! My husband fails to see the fact that when I buy a $4 bottle of juice, its not for him, its so I can get some of the nutrients I need to help my unborn child grow and be healthier. It wouldn't be so bad if he actually replaced what he took, but I never seem to get so lucky. I envy his baby's mama, at least when she was preggo with "A" I'm sure she got doted over, I'm positive that he would run out the door at 1am for her and I'd bet my left foot she was treated nicer too. Not to mention she was never woken up first thing in the morning to help find his clothes that he throws everywhere. Not my job I tell you! I guess that's what I get for being his second pregnancy and not the first. Honestly, nothing has changed with his attitude since finding out, its like I can just run outside and run a marathon and be the exact same way I was when I wasn't pregnant.

People wonder why I rarely ask for help? I'm tired of having those whom are closest to me let me down 90% of the time. Yes I know I'm demanding and bossy about certain things, but just maybe there is a reason for it. I'd rather just be by myself when I give birth, I don't expect any one to really help me with anything anyways. It would be so uncharacteristic of certain people.

Yes, today is a down day.